hmm...idk why but...sometimes i felt angry but...i cant tell it or express it...not infront of u that is...coz ur the only person i cant be mad with......i want to tell u something but..i just cant..i know u in confusion rite now....i know u trying to make urself happy....look i know what u wanna do n tell me...ur trying to protect me from her...coz u think shes using me....i know....by the way u say it i know from the start u dont like her....but who else i have?...u n her only..shes bz n only sometimes with me...u always with me but yet...just ur body not ur soul n mind...its elsewhere...but yeah u would deny it....look...im sorry for what i did...i really am...i really wanna make it up to u....but staying away is the really hardest thing.....but...if u keep on wanting it...then for ur happiness..i cant do anything...but..just to agree with it...feels like u wanna stay away from me.....like i really bring u problem in ur life....idk...look all i do is protecting u too...idk...right now im sure in ur eyes all that i do is wrong for u....n im sorry for it......sometimes i felt 'sebak' but i wont tell it to anybody else...no one knows it...if i really am bring problem to u..just say it....i try to correct myself....just dont leave me...thats all i ask....people ask me to move on....but i just cant....yeah those who couple with u always say ur perfect...yeah u are...probably ur perfect because u can complete the other half of them....all i can do is watch...thats all i can.....i am a useless guy arent i?......sigh..wish i could do more that can make u happy