strange....why do i keep thinking bout you...keep wondering bout whats going on with u and stuff,clearly you've been avoiding answering any msg I given to...i mean there no answer from you..for a freaking long time..i feel like "did i do anything wrong?" did i do any shit that makes u upset?...for the rest of the torment and agony month i have been full of guilt..of not knowing anything..i almost wanna quit myself from anything...even from my studies...am almost gonna be crash and burn...i think am getting way overhead myself...u might didnt know this but am taking leave of absence this trimester...just to clear out stuff from my mind...maybe this is the karma...bout how stupid i am...not noticing u at first time...and the curse that i had to bear with it..for the rest of god knows when...maybe the rest my life...who knows...-sigh-...its bad that i start writing back here...i thought i wont come here ever again...i guess shit will happen no matter what...rite? now..am seeing u are getting happier by the day..while am gone...i guess maybe that's the only way...as the punishment that i should get...i shouldn't interfere at first place..rather i shouldn't get online back...but fuck...am missing u...and i think thats bad...because i don't think u felt the way i felt too..but hey..fuck me..dim witted remember?...i guess am always gonna fall for u and adore u what ever the circumstances is...there was one time..am thinking bout cutting...but i guess..i still can control myself ....i just subtitute with another thing which cant be seen by naked eyes so nobody cant know what happen...when i mean nobody i really mean nobody....after this it might be the last of u seeing me ever again...maybe...but idk..if i can ever control the urge to do that...but if u say it infront of me that u really wish that to happen...i guess i might had to do it with everything i had....every single strength i have...but what ever it is..ur face n the memories we had will stay forever
sincerely ,
the guy
